can I stop being mediocre?

I pretty much dislike myself. I did not always. But the way my life has gone just made me this way I guess.
I want to stop disliking myself. Do you think I can change? I pray every night to be a better person. I hope my prayers are answered.

Stop being wishy-washy! "I want", "I'll try", "I'd like to", "I think", "I'd might" are ALL wishy washy. "I want to lose weight" isn't a decision, but "I'm going to lose 15lbs." certainly is. "I'll try to start eating better" is limp reasoning at best. Are you going to do it or aren't you? MAKE A DECISION AND THEN DO IT! Own it. Claim it. -And it will be yours. Brook Jay

As Yoda said, “Try not. Do or do not. There is no try.”

Henry Ford said,

If you think you can, or if you think you can't, you're right.

What was it that Joyce Meyer always said? "You need a backbone and not a wishbone",